Will Things Ever Work Out?

Well i suck extremely bad at updating this. It's been forever since i've wrote anything.  Well tons of stuff has happened. I'll just give a quick overview. We'll go from my birthday up to now.....So my birthday rocked hardcore. All i have to say is I LOVE my friends hot Tyler and yellow corvettes and of course street sittin! Oh yeah! But yeah so after street sittin my whole bday all like 12 of us GIRLS went down to the end to play some volleyball. Al and Steph went to DQ to buy me a birthday cake and i swear it's the coolest cake ever in the history of the world! It so had a monster truck on it! But so these people made me ride on te garbage can. It took a lot to get me to do it cuz i really ddin't want to. This cowboy man like tried to pick me up and put me on it and like molested me and that asnt fun but then i got pushed around on the top of a garbage can and that was super fun and scary...until i fell off. Then we met theses two super super drunk guys...wow funny! So i've had basketball a lot and been working a ton. Work is so awesome...I totally love it! I dont think any other job compares. And i so love the people that I work with.  A few a lot more than others but its super fun! Theres certain people that can always make me happy at work even when stuff is going crappy...even if that includes faking jumping off the boat and actually almost doing it in the process...or makin fun of me in the narration...or walking me to my car...or makin a mix of tv theme songs...GOLDEN GIRLS! :) Or dancin the chicken dance and wearin big thick nerd glasses and dancin for no reason with no music! Or pretending its my birthday and giving me part of your tips! There are few nice people left in this world...and i swear most of them work with me! But yeah thats some more little things that have happened in the last month. but there's still a ton more! The fourth was sweet for the most part...except for gettin in a huge fight with my 20 year old bro that decided to call the out of town rents to tattle on me for something i didnt even do...then havin his girlfriend who is my age swear at me in my own house when shes not even part of our arguement...and then me bawling in my kitchen for a while. That part of the day sucked. Laura and i used some comp tickets and went out on the vista...sat in the pilot house with captain ed amanda and mike....they were crazy and it was so fun we messed around with capt eds phone and took some fun/inappropriate pictures. Boy do we love mikey! But me rin sarah gen and laura went to my boat to watch the fireworks. That was super fun! We got hit on by this like 30 year old guy...kinda icky but hilarious. Then after the fireworks some boys were break dancin at the end of our dock. one word.....FUNNY! The next day we chilled down here for sarahs birthday. Then on mels birthday we had a bunch of people down here...So pat found this car in my garage and was driving it around in the street and jade ran it over....super funny when it happened...but not when i found out it was my bros and i owe him 80 bucks for it...Yeah cried a ton that day too. And im gettin sick of a few people that i normally hang out with. People are changing...And not in a good way. People i used to love so much are just dumb and i lose respect for them everyday.  I sometimes wish things would go back to normal. But then i dont. Ive grown up so much this summer so far. Its a good thing but so freakin scary!! Im gonna be a senior and then im gonna graduate...it freaks me out so much! Growing up scares the hell out of me! Especially in the love department. Yep pretty sure nothing is gonna happen there and ill end up alone for the rest of my life...i hope not but what can ya do. So this is getting long.  I'm so bored tho. Like anyone reads this. But yeah i hope things start going better. For not just me. For friends and my family. My mom has been soooo sick lately. It scares me so bad cuz theres nothing we can do for her. Her new medicine takes like 4 months to start workin and the side affects make her so crabby and nothin i do is good enough.  Im scared for her most days. And its all hard on my dad he gets it worse than me. I just wish she would get better instead of worse.but she has to go give blood every week and they arent really doing much to make her not so sick. I wish i was a better daughter and knew how to make things a little easier but whatever i do isnt good enough. I hate being home lately cuz i sit and cry and think cuz i have nothing else to do.But i think im going to be done with this now...Gonna go cry some more than try and go to bed...think of happy stuff...not much of that. It always goes back to my lame boy life...ya know the one that doesnt exist...yeah well im gonna go.